February 2012
25 posts
Work is so fucking busy and Chris comes over every night. So I haven’t been on lately. But good news is that I might possibly be moving into an apartment with Chris after may!woohoooo. My eating hasn’t been too bad, but I’m still 124 and my new goal is to beatleast 120 by the end of February. Its pretty depressing that my goals just get worse and worse. I need to get motivated...
So far today,
I’ve had a cup of chicken rice, a slice of cheese pizza, and three breadsticks with cheese… God its so bad. Nothing else.
I am not going to be ashamed of my body this...
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So, Its been like two weeks.
Sorry i have got on or posted, just been very busy.
Im at like 123 right now. & Im still hoping to be at 110 - 115 by the end of the month.
I love Chris so much, and i just want to be tiny and perfect for him. I want to be beautiful and confident.
So during the day i had a tiny tuna salad that was about 380 calories, lots of water and diet coke, and then a veggie sandwich that was 220. Then i burned around 175 at work. I felt like shit all day and was a lazy bitch. So i need to step it up tomorrow, or Nicholas will be upset lol. Ohhhhh & i forgot, i also had 4 mozzi sticks and some curly fries when i got home.. Yeah. So i did good...
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I went grocery shopping today!
I got some foods to snack on when im at home because if i dont have healthy snacks i go crazy and binge. I got a huuuuge thing of broccoli, red pepper hummus ( i think its nasty and im going to secrety throw it away), potato salad ( not too healthy, lots of calories but only 100 cal. for 1/3 cup which will curb my cravings.), Diet V8 ( only 10 calories! ). I also went and got some new clothes, and...
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The last few days have been terrible.
Im not even going to try to list what i’ve eaten / the calories. Its probably 3000 a day, and its all fast food. And Chris left yesterday after i went to work. God, im going to miss him so bad. But atleast i can try to get back on track. Lately i havent been able to get more than three or four hours of sleep at night. Unless chris stays the night. Anyway, Its fucking friday...
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me: I'm hu-
ana: huge, yes you are huge.
January 2012
64 posts
5:24pm That didnt last verylong..
I had to take my mom and sister to get something to eat, and they wanted tacobell. I told myself I would get one fresco taco, and next thing I know I’m eating a beefy crunch burrito and fiesta potatoes. I dont even crave particular foods anymore, I just crave food..
1:49 pm
I woke up like an hour ago and I already feel like shit. Yesterday I worked 13 hours so I slept really late, and wokeip to Chris banging on the door. He was mad because he called me like thirty times and wanted to go do something before he had to go to work. I feel bad because he feels unwanted and like I don’t pay attention to him. I need to work on that.
No more sleeping in till 1 in the...
Mum: It's all about diet and exercise.
Me: Nope it's all about not eating, guzzling water and proving to yourself your stronger than you are fat.
Mum: That's a fucked up way to think of it.
Me: Well it's working.
I wont stop untill there's a gap between my...
missedtheskinnygirlmemo:
Fuck the bitch that called you fat and fuck the guy that rejected you. MAKE THEM REGRET IT.
let the journey begin: Why am I doing this? →
blindfoldedhummingbird:
To look better than her.
To prove to your worthless ass that I AM beautiful.
Because I want my life back.
Because I’m tired of being a fat ass.
Because I want a mother fucking thigh gap.
Because I want control.
Because I want to feel beautiful.
Because you ‘forgot’ how to help me.
Because…
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12:16 am. This is how my days have been going..
Yesterday i worked and i was doing pretty good. Then, me and Chris came home and we watched movies. My sister said she had cotton candy and i asked if she had any left, cause i wanted a taste as i havent had any in like three years lol. So chris left cause he wanted to buy me some /: I didnt think it would be that bad, and i would just eat a little. But he was gone for a long time and when he came...
FINALLY GOT MY FUCKING ASK TURNED ON
Anyway, Feel free to ask me shit, tell me about yourself, how your journey is going, ect. Anon or not.
Tips *that you probably already know*
* Drink a glass of water before every meal.
* Mint/peppermint helps curb appetite and cravings.
* Only weight yourself in the morning when you wake up.
* Take a sip of water between every bite.
Have cravings?
Do sit ups
Take a shower
Paint your nails
Do your make up
DRINK WATER
* Smoke. ( Im not really promoting you to start, but if you do, it helps.)
* Look at...
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I will say no.
I work today from 3-9, and im praying that we stay busy so i dont get hungry..
I just had some toast with peanutbutter and peach yogurt on top, probably around 300 calories.. If i must, I’ll eat a bag of apples. Thats it.
This is so fucking hard. But somehow, i love it.. I just cant wait till im at 100.
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Why cant i get a fucking ask on my tumblr?
Summer is coming, whether you get skinny or not.
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Its 6:02pm
I slept in late, but without Chris. ): I’ve realized I don’t sleep good without him. Its gonna fucking suck when he leaves..
Anyway, before we went to our meeting at work, we had to get ciggs so I picked up some mini donuts that are like 430 calories… pretty bad. But I’m about to go to school so I had my bowl of frozen grapes and have some almonds for class. Then nothing...
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Today was shitty.
I wasn’t even schedules at work, But i ended up working fucking 11 hours since i covered for Michael in the morning and Chris and night. Nick, (my friend for like 3 years and Chris’s brother), was a fucking asshole all day and was giving my shit about chris & I’s relationship. He’s so fucking mean, but he thinks its playing.. It gets to me though.
I didnt really have...
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mirror, mirror on the wall ruthless to your victim suiting you becomes my love tied to my reflection hunger takes a hold of me making my decisions glossy fashion magazines will feed my new addiction ...
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